ten things to ruin my day
one. something's bugging me and i cannot get it out of my system cos i'm not sure how and to whom i want to tell this to. i really feel very i dunno-what-i'm-feeling about this.
two. and now, i am suddenly despondent about the state of how we can maintain this. who were we kidding everything's changed and is no longer the same. there will never be the same kind of interaction between all of us anymore.
three. my readings. i really don't like having to say hi to charles darwin again after leaving him behind in j2 bio.
fourth. the messy state of my table is bugging me but i have no inclination to clear it.
five. i want to change the slot i have for COM221 to the monday aftnn slot but it's full. and i will drop com 223 for 251. i will not take THREE exams in a day.
six. i have to plan for trial class on wednesday. when i'm supposed to be at newspaper prac oh my god i really have no idea what to do. to drop or to keep but leave early. but i'll have to leave early for THREE consecutive weds cos trial class, auditions and welcome tea. and then i still have no idea if i really should focus more on this or on dance cos after all i am dance ic. i still love dance, but other things keep getting in the way such that i am unable to enjoy it like i used to.
seven. DND is bugging me i have no idea how to do my hair. ok this seems more irrelevant compared to the rest but the fact that dnd is this friday makes it of paramount importance.
eight. i need to lose weight. i have said this many times, but it hasn't struck me so much till now. i was blown away (negatively) by how fat i look in the mirror ARGH. and then i went to eat a spoonful of nutella just now and had plenty of food at ah ma's place. i promise i will stop eating rubbish the people around me please please please help me to do this. i lack the necessary willpower i need you all to keep me from doing what i should not do.
nine. shufang msged me to tell me she is very likely going to drop creative writing oh gods i don't think i can survive this on my own.
ten. i want to peel off my skin to the nice ivory shade that grace is. maybe just two shades darker than grace.
it seems like i'm having a lot of body image problem these days. argh
living in my fantasy world
on Monday, August 17, 2009; 11:08 PM
