another panic attack left me trembling.
why can't i go back to the past when i couldn't be bothered with failing my subjects, and just relax when it's the exam period?
especially since studying has never meant less to me than now. i don't know why i'm studying, i'm just studying because i have to be studying. i no longer learn for the sake and pleasure of learning. i miss that exhilaration of finding out new things, that excitement that i am discovering more about the world.
where is it?? WHERE IS IT??
going through the motions of studying is getting irksome. i miss the time when i complain that i am stressed, but am secretly very high on studying. sigh.
come back soon oh mind of mine.
living in my fantasy world
on Sunday, April 12, 2009; 7:44 PM
