it suddenly hit me i will hit the big 20 in about 5 months.
the realisation that i've done nothing important in these past 2 decades is depressing. people in their mid teens are achieving huge things, and here i am, a little nothing.
and the knowledge that i will continue to do nothing about it is... doing no good to my moral. what a stupid thing. since i know the problem, i should try to do something about it. but instead, i'm here wallowing in self-pity. fantastic.
余尔格did the solo for the amazing 岁月如歌 at age 16/17. rihanna is 19. as is chris brown. there was this child who silenced the whole of the United Nations Assembly for 6 minutes as she spoke wonderfully eloquently about the consequences of global warming at age 13.
me? nothing. there's always things that people tell me i did that makes a difference, that is important. but the truth is, it's never been important enough. it's all very minor stuff, really.
and i'm finally learning how to multi-task. yea finally.
sigh i've become completely random. and this post goes back to the small size i like better.
living in my fantasy world
on Friday, March 06, 2009; 11:00 PM
