i need my sanity. i need reassurance that things won't change too badly. i need to feel secure.
yet, i'm feeling none of those.
i can deal with changes, doesn't mean i like them. sometimes, changes can upset me enough to cause me to lose focus. but i'll recover in time.
com 203's two research project, one on china, one on the media profession in the 21st century (something like that.
203's quiz this thurs.
marketing presentation/report
french test nxt wed
205 impromptu speech.
not to mention exams start in 25 days time. omg omg omg omg omg omg OH MY FREAKING GAWD.
i miss jc. as in, i never cared if i flunked, cos i was failing all e time anyway. and it's not even counted towards my final A level cert. so i flunked my way through jc. and had A LOT OF FUN. i had my fair share of unhappy events, but i had fun because i didn't worry about school work. now, EVERYTHING MATTERS. every little presentation, every piece of work submitted. i'm working harder than i've ever worked man, except for pre-A levels period. sucks
i'm whining in every post nowadays. even i am getting sick of myself.
well then, something more exciting.
dance today! (: back at hc. i'm sure i'll get muscle ache tomorrow. hoho (: makes me happy to think i'm working my muscles. my turns suck. i can't do chainés anymore. i need to train train train (: and the ribbon is so reminiscent of the gym one! it's pretty (: and the further on we move in the dance, the happier i get (: it's really damn exciting!!! the music is funny. each part isn't connected. it just feels like random pieces of music thrown together to make up one song urps. but it's got such and exciting beat to it, and it's catchy!
and then after a quick shower, liying n i went to national library! to the reference section. they were so ANAL about what's in our bags. we had to deposit our food in the lockers. they checked my laptop case to ensure i brought in no notes. and also my bag. and my jacket to make sure i didn't smuggle anything in -.- well i could always study on my laptop since my notes are all inside it haha. liying took a long time to do her lab report. so i finished studying my notes for advertising. am just left with the readings for the test! (: happy. although erm why i'm happy i don't know, since the readings are... HUMONGOUS.
i like nice arm muscles.
left the library at 9 when they made the 5 min announcement. it's really my first time really going through national library. i've been there several times during my lunchbreaks when i was still working at income, but never really been there properly. there's lots of resources on dance! shall go there again with liying nxt sat (:
it's going to be a lot sadder from now on.
living in my fantasy world
on Saturday, October 18, 2008; 11:24 PM
