replies to tags first:in-law: grawr i'm totally frustrated like going to tear my hair out! amanda: OH MAN I NVR SEE! but yay i enjoyed kou-ing you guys/gossiping/doing whatever we've done together! you guys made me damn proud on friday night :) aki: haha thank you!wenqi: haha you and your black tears and my dropping off fake eyelash! we were damn funny lol. and haha NOW YOU KNOW. i thought i spent like so much time telling everyone! u're one of the rare ones who nvr hear lol. i only came into dance in sec 3 nov!ok well back to stuffs.FOR THE FIRST TIME EVER, I AM GOING TO PUBLICLY SWEAR ON THIS BLOG.FUCK FUCK FUCK THE STARS SYSTEM.it's giving me a humongous headache. all the courses there either:1. clashes with my current timetable2. clashes with my exam timetable3. got imba weird times that require me to stay in sch till quite late 4. have completely no vacancy5. or is completely something i refuse to take upas you can see, i'm kind of close to desperate. desperate enough to want to take up french. can you freaking imagine me doing french??? although i admit languages is already my strongest suit... it's also a completely new language. i imagine i'll only have mastered how to count in french by the end of the semester -.- seriously! the timetable thingy sucks.and not to mention, my carefully planned plan ONE with enough vacancies this afternoon suddenly became ZERO vacancies for 2 out of the 3 modules i chose. all thanks to the snrs' add/drop period ending today. rawr. super pissed! not at the seniors, just at the general idea of the system. so now my whole meticulous careful planning has gone down the drain.on a happier side note：I SHALL HEREBY DECLARE I LOVE VANESSA! vtoo has very kindly and wonderfully agreed to lend me her laptop to grapple with everyone else on STARS to ensure i don't lose out at 10am tomorrow morning to everyone else! and jason too, for kindly agreeing (i'm not too sure he had a choice) to come down and pei vtoo while she stones the time away for coming early just to pass me the laptop! my ogls are fantastic people :)))not to mention melvin! for the wonderful post on the ravioli blog on the whole AUs system etc. the idiot's guide to all things uni haha. and for being the wonderful troubleshooter whenever we run into problems!see? i told you CS people were a wonderful lot :) i'm glad i'm a CS student cos... it means i'm wonderful too! -.- urps. ok enough of that goh kai shi. ok i'm glad i'm in CS cos i love the course and the people there!oh yea. the erm 2 hour lectures that i have are so -.- i've got short attention span! i got caught by terence for sleeping already. on the SECOND lecture on the FIRST day of school -.- he was telling zed: "look at kaishi" when i overheard and woke up. and realised i had fallen asleep -.- seriously! goh kaishi work on discipline! must must must do well in cs throughout ALL four years cos you're looking at first class honours!ok here's my goal (it's to motivate me for the next four years): to attain a FIRST class honours in comm studies! but that's quite unrealistic, e first lecturer today told us they only gave out FOUR first class for the previous batch -.- urps. nvm a goal is something for me to work towards! :) even if i don't reach it i'll have forced myself to try my best cos it's a very high goal haha.Oh man, it's 12 again -.- and i swore i'll try to sleep early everyday once school starts. damn. but it's all stupid stars' fault! not my fault! Oh yea, my matriculation card well, upon careful inspection, looks halfway decent :) i'm glad it in no way resembles my old ezlink card which is freaking unglam and the source of many loud shouts of laughter upon being presented to someone else -.- yay now i look ok! not glam/pretty or anything, but ok :)you know, certain moments, i just zone off. at such times, you can just gently tap me on the shoulder and wake me back up. i zone off, because i'm back on the esplanade stage, or in the nanyang dance studio, or playing with the juniors or my batchmates. or else conversing with laoshi/other people. all in my head. the memories are just too much. some moments, i really think i'm back there. until i remember that it's all over. and the pain crashes down all over again. i'm sorry guys, give me a few weeks to recover from post dance night syndrome.or is it that i just don't want to recover?tomorrow is a tuesday. just been informed they still have dance. oh man i sooo completely want to go back. since i technically end at 1030 anyway, i can. but, i don't know if i should. suddenly, the dance studio turns into a place where i have to think twice when i go back. unless i can find someone to go back with me, sigh. laoshi will certainly be giving a debrief about dance night. i want to be there to hear her speak again, to let us know how dance night went. she's the best judge of the night. maybe, from now on till a long long while, every tues, wed, fri and sat will bring little twinges everytime they roll around. i'll think i should be in the ny studio, then remember that it's over. rawr. saturdays will once more be spent at the hc studio, for which i've missed terribly. but still, it's completely different. oh wells.STOP EMO-ING, GOH KAI SHI.
living in my fantasy world
on Monday, August 04, 2008; 11:25 PM
