had a weird dream last night.dreamt that dance night was over. OMGi woke up crying cos i was crying over dance night ending.i was really really upset before i realised it was all a dream.once dance night is over:no more wonderful nycd people.no more laoshi.no more beautiful ny dance studio.no more lianpais, funny hair/toushino more familiar barrework routinesno more daidao, no more dongtian.no more no more no more.even if i want to, i may not have the time to go back nycd that often, cos school starts the monday immediately after dance night. i won't even have time to emo/have post-dance night syndrome.i'm really really hoping dance night will NEVER come. not because i don't want to see the fruition of the juniors' hard work. but because i don't want to lose what i have right now. still thinking of whether to go for lian gong tomorrow. all e people from my batch are going only in the afternoon, but i really want to liangong. feel really shitty dancing when i don't. not to mention i've to matriculate online.yea wells. i'm tired.and my old feeling of insecurity is coming back. but this time, it's due to different people. haiz. why why why am i always so insecure? pffttt.well, i should go to bed, since i'm so tired. good night world.
living in my fantasy world
on Sunday, July 27, 2008; 9:41 PM
