week 1 <3all due to my fascination w pink :)i missed the 70km overnight cycling trip i was so enthusiatic about. :( i dropped out the night b4 e actual trip, cos 1. my uni application essays were of paramount importance and i had yet to complete them 2. i never actually managed to condition my body for it, i haven't really been exercising. so i was pretty sure i shldn't go, but i was still unwillingly to give up such a chance to do sth i have nvr done b4, plus e chance to meet great frens again. but yar in e end pragmatism won. grr. nvm at least i'm not completely exhausted now.uni applications are a chore. i worry so much bout them. not to mention the insane essays we've to write. i've probably lost all my writing skills and are submitting rubbish up to them. and then i can imagine the people who look through e essays laughing at me -.- wat a strong bout of lack of confidence -.- haha actually not really it's jst the truth. i'm still highly confident :)i'm completely stuffed. had once pack of rice, lots of papaya, and 2 of those chinese sticky goodies. sugar overload. i completely feel like puking. rawr.i'm insecure. i cannot help it. i'm sorry dear, i don't mean to.dong tian tdy. was q fun, though i was v reluctant to go in e first place. IT'S ON SUNDAY FOR GOODNESS' SAKE!!! yar but we've got NICE umbrellas that pop open! completely cool. and huge changes omg. but it's proving to be a v v nice dance! completely different from e ntu one. :)and we had no hc dance yesterday :( but technically it's good for me, since i couldn't go in e first place, and for liting too haha. but now we're officially VERY behind time. shuck. and we want to make them lian gong too. it's SO completely not gg to happen. rawr. worried.非常强的安全感。一丝丝的温暖。但又应为害怕，而出现了问题。彼此的信任非常重要。选择了这条路，就要好好走下去。相信一定能找到幸福。
living in my fantasy world
on Sunday, March 30, 2008; 10:15 PM
