oh ho ho!been mugging with liying in sch. and once again, NG LIYING YOU ENTERTAIN ME A LOT. seriously with all you sound effects and weird actions. haha!one maths topic down. DE. but 4 more to go. complex nos shld be ok. functions ap gp and vectors... erm not much confidence. but i'm sure i can do vectors :D it's jst i'm scared of it. but i can do cos wufan drilled me in it! :D wufan rocks!why am i online???? gosh i'm dumb. but the library cubicles are GOOD. seriously you wun get distracted by ANYTHING. i managed to finisht the whole of tutorial 2b while i was there lol. shit. today's friday. tmr i've got to go see doc, go east coast wif my family cos my uncle's treating us all after getting his bonus *cough cough* spare me some pls??? sunday's e last day left. THEN. IT'S. DOOMSDAY.yay. block test one '07 for j2s.it's rly scary. omg omg what if i end up with UUDDC again??? i'll jst seriously die. and i'll probably drop sch or sth. i'm starting to get panic attacks again. i can jst sit there, thinking about the exams, and sudden panic and get breathless and fearful. no. pls. dun let me fail blks again.but somehow, amidst all this worry and studying, i dun fall aslp very easily. i lie awake for hrs thinking about my dancing. what i've done, what i'm doing and what i shld do. reading throught tt ballet technique book's reminded me of a lot of fundamentals that i've forgotten shld be in my barre work and technique. not tt i've got much of a technique. i was jst thinking last night. things like frappe, double frappe, fondue shld all be done with the legs from the knees down, knees up remain in constant position. but somehow, it jst din register and now i've decided i've to start all over again in training my technique. rawr. no dance tmr. it's jst e j1s at least i wun be at home. i'll jst be staring at the clock and thinking what they could be doing at that point in time. i'll be out seeing the doctor for my screwed up wrist. rawr. finally. but i rly dun want to. i dunno y, i jst dun want to. tt day went wif liying to see doc for HER wrist but i also din wanna see doctor for MY wrist. actually it was getting better but i picked up my bag with my left hand today and jst made it WORSE. rawr. irritating. jst now i couldn't even hold the bus rail with it. hurt like shit. grr.i realise my upper body's losing somemore weight, which is what i DON"T WANT. i hate seeing rib cage bones on the upper chest area, esp for tt syf movement where e mirror is so visible and we pose in that stupid rib showing position for so long. WHY CAN'T IT BE MY LOWER BODY TT'S LOSING WEIGHT?it's where i nd to. so now the difference btw my lower and upper body's getting bigger. eww. and that pretty esprit shirt i bought last year hangs like erm dunno. it's jst too big le.rawr i shld go shwr and then continue studying. although i realised that when i'm too comfortable i can't study well. hmm.
living in my fantasy world
on Friday, March 16, 2007; 8:34 PM
