the end of anth wk. or, since it's sunday, it's e start of a new week.
looking back at this past 1 1/2 mths that's been this year, i'm freaked out. my schedule for january was insane. i've NO IDEA how i got thru it. and this mth's no different, esp wif e addition of anth cca day. there's jst so many things i want to do, i nd to do, and wish to do. but i've jst got no time. i need to go shopping to buy vday presents for my angel/mortal, for my valentine, for dance angel/mortal, for dancers, for 73ers etc. rawr hc's irritating custom means we waste a whole lot of money grr. AND it clashes rly to close to cny which means all those rehearsals cut off shopping time. vday is on WEDNESDAY. monday after sch gg to fix leotard, which will take a long time. tues rehearsal/dry run. wed is e day already. shit. AND i wanna pack up all e stacks of pprs in my rm in time for the new year, but i forsee that i wun be able to do it, since wed is xcountry, thurs is rehearsal till 8plus, friday is performance and all that. rawr.
add the fact that i'm sick. fuzzy head and stuck nose. surprisingly i still managed to do chem kinetics tutorial, maths peer tutoring tutorial this morning.
and my phone is still screwing up on me. rawr.
last friday was e only day i was free after sch for this whole year. i felt so weird that i din noe wat to do. so i went to macs near my place to study cos i noe i'll procrastinate at home. i was actually quite efficient for one and a half hrs there till the hordes of hillgrove and bukitviewers who jst recieved their o's results started streaming in and making a hell of a noise. and the two ladies who decided to take e table beside me kept making comments on my belongings. such as a waste of money graphing calculators were, wat functions it has, wat a large no. of zig markers i own etc etc. plus my identity as a hwachongian and our good reputation plus mugger reputation which i was upholding and all that. so i packed up and left. and ended up hm at 5, then i slacked all e way grr. wat a waste of time.
i still need a new wallet. mine's rotting already.
and i think i'l missing a ligament in my ankle already. as in seriously. i've no idea how to explain, but i just noe. and plus it can bend in all directions when it couldn't prior to the most recent sprain. there's jst a missing ligament or sth that used to hold it, despite not having been very efficient. but it's not there now. i think e last sprain was e last straw and it gave up on me by going snap. rawr. honestly, i'm terrified. of what can happen now.
and friday's performance is at central plaza. i cannot deny that i'm utterly freaked out. no, not stage fright. it's fear of the floor. i was seriously tramautised by tt injury tt time. i think of e central plaza and break out in sweat. i'm praying it rains on friday. then we'll go to the hall which is GOOD. on saturday xx accidently fell. i let out this half muffled scream thing cos i was so scared. but he got up like it was nth. if only i could be like that. if i were him, i'm sure i would have had to go out of action for a mth. *shivers*
i wish i could restart all over again with a normal leg, before that first fracture in sec ONE.
actually i believe my body is getting screwed. my knees give way when i stand, and i almost fall. and it happens almost everyday. my whole right hand can go numb 5/6 times a day. i tink i pulled a upper/inner thigh muscle that makes even lifting my right leg painful. not to mention the pain that comes at night from my back when i lie on my back to slp. i can only lie on my side. maybe i'll die soon. haha. i agree wif mum though, it's easier to die than to live with all sorts of illnesses in singapore. at least you wun haf to contend wif impossible bills and the emotional pain.
on the plus side! cny is coming :))) imagine all the fun! AND GG OUT WITH ZELING AND AGA AGAIN! muahahaha. and apollo won overall best play at dramafest :D we're catching up again ppl! WATCH OUT FOR APOLLO! and we're gonna do well again on friday's fac dance competition. you just wait. :) and imagine all e fun dancers are gonna have with friday's performance! makeup, runs, playing... haha! and we're getting rock solid abs. thnks to xx's stomach exercises. plus our pt punishment for latecoming lol.
okok on e whole, looking forward to this coming week! :D
living in my fantasy world
on Sunday, February 11, 2007; 3:15 PM
