today's a happy day *smiles ruefully.too bad it's over.met carmen kiahui aileen for brunch. it was like the old times at aj, when the four of us sat and talked about nothing in particular, yet everything. i miss those times. it's like a page out of another person's book, these gatherings, so surreal, yet true. the time that we get to spend nowadays together is like a drop of water in the ocean, so little, yet so precious. i hated leaving. and then some of 4/13 ppl met up. suelynn yanyin xinyi miaoqin rachael samantha ivy. went new york new york to eat lunch instead of ding tai feng. and we talked a lot. some of the things we talked about cannot be repeated here, but yar. we had a lot of fun. then went window shopping, and most of us bought the same white retro hairband! quite pretty. i like. but all too soon, we had dinner ( oops i was supposed to go for class bbq) and i had to leave with yao, both to our seperate current class gathering. 4/13 ppl just gives me the same sense of belonging. but not here. not now. it's quite sad. and i still have 1 year to go. somehow, i'm sure that if i just disappeared, no one from our class will bother, not miss me, not even realise i'm gone.so after i left suelynn they all i went to ms soh's condo. got conned by johnathan and yee boon. idiots. nvr md. then yar stone stone a bit. played truth or dare. then oh we tried pushing ppl into the pool. nick and brandon got in. thank goodness the guys wouldn't dare try to push us in, as in they tried, but they wun try their hardest. then i came home. it's officially a new day already, since it's past 12. all these happenings today no longer seem like they just happened. i miss aj n 413 ppl already. hiaz. cca tmr morning. meeting at 715 in sch. again, i get to sit and watch. yay.only one exclamation mark today. even i can tell that i'm in one of my pathetically low moods. why do i always seem to do this to myself? even looking at the silhouette. i hate myself.i did a lot of thinking last night. i'm pretty sure i'll stay up tonight till when i'm supposed to wake up thinking too. i've got so many things to think about. it's all jumbled in my head. i hope i can sort them out. but somehow i dun think so. i really need to put aside the past and move on with life. i'm unable to appreciate the present, because the past is just so much better, and so much more wonderful.1 more month. hopefully.
living in my fantasy world
on Saturday, October 28, 2006; 12:02 AM
