i have decided to restrict myself to blogging only on saturdays cos i need to spend more time more efficiently OFFLINE and studying.ooh long sentence.yep.ok anyway...updates!heh efficient week!finished alkenes arenes meiosis mitosis tutorialsmaths assignment 6c bio practical studied for chem test.hmm and a few more here and there.hey it might not be much to you, but it's a lot for me.given that i work very slowly.yesterday stayed till 9 in sch wif liying to study. i must say, it makes me study on friday nights. haha i usually stone/sleep/go online on fridays cos i tell myself there's the weekend. but now, NO MORE! i will study! cos i stay in the reading room, where there's nothing but tables and chairs and nth can distract me! although like liying said, i spent more time writing titles for my tutorials than actually doing a lot of them. but i did a lot more than i usually will and can do! yep.hmm i wonder why i no longer use the word haha so often anymore. maybe i no longer laugh that much.anyway...cca today. after 2 wks of no xx's lesson. today was quite bad. cos liting n liying weren't arnd! damn sad. so it was just me n jie. yep. ok lar, actually compared to wat he usually does it was quite slack, but because it was so long since we actually did all these things made it quite bad. cos most of us were struggling with the actions of the routines. i was quite scared doing them, cos i noe that my whole grp ( or most of them anyway) were using me as the guide. and i was damn scared of doing wrong and thus making my whole group go wrong. and teaching. erm i hope i teach correctly. cos again, i'm scared i teach the wrong things. i hope i'm doing ok. hmm n liying we need both ic's arnd lar!!!! come back soon! i noe ur ankle wrapping comes off TODAY. so u better turn up! wahahaha! then lunch wif regina at kap. then i'm here.arhhhh! problem wif pw. i wonder if gwen n ying cheng are angry. cos i kind of screwed up the survey results. cos i sent the online surveys to conger and thot she'll collate in, but she din, and cos i sent to her redi, i deleted them on my com. like omg. now wat's gg to happen???funny. i can't seem to find something i want to talk about about school. except for cca and the happydancerfamily. wat's happening to me??? i used to have so much to say. especially when still in nanyang.was discussing while waiting for the bus at nanyang busstop last nite (cos the gate was locked and liying and i decided to walk all the way over across chi high since we were halfway there anyway) and we were talking about our time in nanyang. i noe i complained, but it was for the sake of complaining. i loved nanyang. i felt safe. and happy. and everything was wonderful. and then i came hc.those who complain about nanyang, and truly mean it, liying and i have a conclusion.shen zai fu zhong bu zhi fu.it means u dun appreciate the wonderful things u have.but then again(as liying rightfully pointed out) ppl would say the same thing about me.nvr md.an analogy.there's so many things around you you don't noe where to move.and when you finally find an empty space to step on, you find that it's a landmine. and so you get blown apart, and you step back to square one. in the process of trying, you are grieviously injured, but then you end up where you were.so wat's the point?there are so many things i want to do but i can't seem to do them. i need more time. and that's why i've decided to drop literature, which is an interest. i've already unofficially dropped it since i haven been to class for ages, but i still nd to tell ms audrey and get some form i think. wth.you can't blame me for sticking to where i feel all safe and secure. it's where i feel most comfortable, and where i feel i should be. i dun care if it's bad. and you can't pull me away. anyway...we came up with a new term.walking diaries!and then upon reflection, i've got three!!!liying daje liting!whoots!i love my happydancerfamily!haha pee too!just that we spend less time tgt.heh.i tink i'll end on that high and happy note. no use dwelling on unhappy memories.econs ilp wif evonne now :(i hate work.
living in my fantasy world
on Saturday, August 12, 2006; 3:57 PM
