i am forced to conclude that my body cannot take too much, and that i've been running on pure adrenaline the past week. yesterday, immediately after the performance, i sat down to remove my ankle guard. and i really felt like dying. my ankle was one big throbbing ache. and yar lar i could get on the mrt and all that lar. but after i got hm and went into the shower i found myself feeling really dreadful. and then i went to bed at 1.30, but i really couldn't slp, cos my whole body felt like ... i dunno how to describe it. i couldn't move cos it was aching so much, but i felt really horrible at every position. and at 3.3o i couldn't stand it anymore. i used the analgesic cream like nobody's business. and then i felt just a LITTLE bit better. but i tink it was arnd five plus before i could fall aslp. and my stupid sis had to wake me up at 9. ahh well it wasn't her fault. i did tell her before sundays wake me at nine -.- and now i'm like still dying. HOW TO DO WORK YOU TELL ME? i owe so much work.it's like during all those practices we had? we kept gg through dangerously in love. and always halfway throught th dance i feel like i'm dying, and that i cannot continue. but i push on anyway. and now it's taking it's toll. i guess it was all a bad decision. and i just cannot take bad news anymore. just how much can a person stand? losing the little precious time we get to spend tgt is just going to kill me. NO THIS CANNOT BE HAPPENING!and then there's all that little things... which are actually quite big. and misunderstandings, and time management problems, and neglect and watever crap. i really cannot take much more already.life used to be simple.
living in my fantasy world
on Sunday, August 06, 2006; 11:15 AM
