today's saturday.so there was cca.i was uber tired today.did not dance properly.very disappointed in myself.for letting other things make me so mentally tired that i cannot dance properly.i'm disgusted at myself.i was really really shitty today. think screwing up ronde de jambe. and battement tendu. which is like supposed to be easy. and think of wat else i'm capable of screwing up. or DID screw up. and learning the new part of <> was just torture. my mind wasn't working. neither were my legs, nor my arms, or basically, any part of my body. i barely could rmb stuff. i even screwed up 反面 for my handstand cartwheel routine. BADLY. oh whatever. i suck.anyway.met youxin on the bridge while gg hc today. :D she was gg for dance in nj. same time leh! and then later...we went thai noodle hse to eat. and then we saw her n jac n peixuan! coming out of curry wok. got so excited. so all three of us, liying, liting n me lar, RAN OUT. screamed. and basically acted like mad ppl. and haha when we finally went back inside... e restaurant guy said he thought we wanted to escape the bill. =.= i'm sure we would have. 1. we were in hc tees and liying in dance tee. it wouldn't have been too difficult to find us. 2. i left MY PHONE on the table. and all our bags were still inside with all our wallets and all. which made it really stupid of us to leave everything there. ahh. then e three of us had tapoica and red ruby! which was really good. we were like all super exhausted. liying was so tired she had trouble holding chopsticks. AND SHE STILL HAD BALLET omg lar. somehow, even though it's not the usual kind of music ppl my age usually like, i'm addicted to new age music. there's just the uplifting sense of joy when i hear them, at each song's climax. i'm glad the happy dancer family shares taste in music. :D it's just so nice!!!laoshi looked so pale yesterday.she nvr take care of herself :( so sad. let's buy her some food to keep in the studio so that she would not go hungry while on a tight schedule and then get stomach problems anymore. passion.it counts for everything.without it, you cannot hope to excel in anything.even though you may be really good, there will always be something lacking.that spark in your eyes perhaps, or just that feel in each step you are dancing, or what you are doing. dance on hccd. we can do it. TOGETHER.trust each other. we'll always be there for each other.we need to be. to allow us to find that passion tgt, to dance well tgt. jiayou.i don't know what to think anymore.i give up.
living in my fantasy world
on Saturday, July 15, 2006; 5:27 PM
