supposed to be doing bio replication tutorial. but wth.i've procrastinated for an hr. i'll just continue.just went through my "nanyang box"it's a box in which i put all things ny so that i wun keep seeing them and getting plagued by memories which will make me unable to move on... but it doesn't work, cos i keep taking it out.anyway...the thing that struck me most was that even though i was only at nycd for one year, most of the things there were related to nycd. half of the box was filled wif relics from nycd. and memories keep rushing back...my first day.it was after i talked to laoshi about possibly joining her after gym closed, and she told me and rach to go down later during their cca for an audition. it was a tuesday. during barre work, she put me beside liting. and for e very first warm up routine, liting gave me a slight correction. and then other things... i still rmb so much about that day's barre. and then i had to leave early. because of piano. so before i left i asked laoshi, with trepidation, whether i could join. i was elated to hear her say yes. why i rmb so much about that day i have no idea.subsequently...i remember an excitement coursing through me. i WANTED to go for cca! but then e nxt cca i had was only for <那就是我> ppl, as mid autumn was that day. it was a friday. so i had no cca. and then it was EOYs. so cca was stopped. i officially started cca somewhere end of october. but while we were mugging for promos, i once went wif suelynn there to mug. and we say jac n others there, but i din dare say hello.and then cca started. she was selecting ppl for syf. and i rmb her asking for tt 高个frm gym. but i wasnt' sure if she was referring to me. but it was after ppl called me to go up tt i did.and then syf cheoreography started. i rmb the first time i learnt it, jac was teaching the 高个s e movements which would later all be scrapped. and then the original 队形, and how she changed so many movements every single trng, and in e end made everyone get off the "stage" and made us run in in grps. i can rmb so much, so much that to list them all would take mths, given that those memories were accumalated in a year. anyway, it suffices to say it was tiring, yet motivating, to see everyone working tgt, urging each other on.through all this time, i forged new friendships. jac youxin pee liying e ppl i ALWAYS went hm wif. and i found my happy dancer family. and then there's laoshi who's ALWAYS there for us, rain or shine, tired, exhausted. she nvr gave up on us.and then we came closer to 11th april '05, a monday. i rmb trng frm e previous mon, tues, wed, thurs, fri, sat, even sunday, even though it was a short trng, and then monday, THE DAY.we gathered outside the dance studio, since we din nd to join classes, and sang <咏梅> tgt, at the top of our voices. we trned, and were amused by liying's skin coloured tights. and then it was time. makeup, costume, glitter etc. so many details, fresh as if yesterday. and i rmb, when we were at kallang theatre,thinking that i'm JUST SO PROUD of all of us, how far we've all come, and we looked e MOST professional, and the most beautiful among all the other grps. seriously. i was more than proud. and then the nxt day, in pee's classrm, we were waiting for the news. da was eating weird things for lunch cos she din have lunch n we din wanna leave e classrm for too long. and then it came. first was nanhua. we cheered like mad to their GOLD. !!! no WITH honours??? shocking. anyway. then it was our turn. GWH. n jac told us later, the man who annouced it, said gold, added a smile and said WITH HONOURS. OH MY GOD. we went mad, wild, crazy. we dashed arnd the sch, screaming, congratulating ourselves...and then, in the midst of mid years, the news we've all been waiting for, the news which we haf all given up hope for...OPENING.i had to BEG my parents to let me go for it. really beg. and i will nvr regret it. the moment we spent on stage, justina, rainbow filled wif many colours... and of course, cutting up our tong quns b4 we left sch to go esplanade that very day...and then it was ny arts festival. craziness. angie rebecca me were acting like drunken ppl e nite, linking hands and stumbling arnd sch. for fun. and then our shava shava. justina's role in rainbow. and of cos daidao. on stage. THERE CAN BE MIRACLES, WHEN YOU BELIEVEyes, i believe in miracles.because this one long year has been one long miracle.a miracle i can nvr be more thankful for.thank you, for all in nycd, for giving me this wonderful time.watching the jnrs do their dance to the song 《同一首歌》just brings back the passion, the feel of dance, the love in all of us, for NYCD. they could dance it better, that is true, but i can see wat laoshi meant to do in her cheoreography, and i could feel myself tear, just at the song. it's just so similar to wat i feel, to what so many of us are feeling.风雨送春归飞雪迎春到已是悬崖百丈冰悠有花之俏俏也不争春只把春来抱待到山花烂漫时它在丛中笑NYCD. laoshi, you and me. 同一首歌，同一支舞WE ARE ONE.
living in my fantasy world
on Sunday, July 09, 2006; 2:51 PM
