my own little world

not good moodish.
will whine.
you have been warned lar.
dun say u cannot stand my whining.

i realised y i cannot slp at night liao.
i realised last night.
i keep thinking of ONE specific thing related to someone.
which brings me a lot of ...dunno. problems?
n i think n think,
n then it'll lead to me thinking of other things, and then my mind will get choked full.
and then cannot slp.
i wish i can let things go.
but i cant.
i just cant.

passion.
dance.
y?
why is there a lack of passion in hccd?
i don't noe.
ppl are so enthusiastic about missing fri's prac.
somehow, exams can nvr be more impt that dance.
but apparently only me n liying share such sentiments.
extra practices.
feasible?
with our already low attendance rates?
and then now we're officially left wif 14 ppl.
WOW.
tt's so many.
we want a dance night.
can we pull one off?
how to gan zhuang?
n gan fu zhuang?
n how many dances, given the no. of dancers?
n how many are willing to give up ALL their time to focus if we're having a dance night?
i dunno.
maybe i'm not being fair here.
maybe i shld not judge so early.
i dunno.
let's just all give kaishi a slap.

and then there's blocks.
let's gif a big hand to kaishi.
who has officially finished atomic structure and enzymes.
ONLY.
for all of e pprs i'm taking.
y do i feel like i'm dead???
cos i am.

and my ankle.
i now noe when it's gg to rain.
NOT GOOD.
and my tummy has grown.
n i gained weight.
n i'm getting flabby.
WTH
and guess wat?
i devoured 3 cheese tarts, more than 3/4 bar of cadbury milk choc,
ate mac's pepper drumlets meal, and polished off 4 packs of e bing bing biscuit.
if u noe wat's tt.
wth again.

on a happier note,
RACH CAME OVER TODAY!
haha talked talked talked!
:D
miss her a lot.

all it takes to make my day:
someone to give me chocolates.
:D

it's so quiet arnd here.
sis is at camp.
PEACE AND QUIET.
it's creepy.
it takes things like this to truly appreciate my sis' presence.
but we get to watch more tv!
and can erm haha do things we dun do arnd her.
:D

150 sit ups.
EVERY NIGHT.
starting yesterday night.
:D

i'm going to get my tummy flat again.
IF POSSIBLE.
n i've gotta start cutting down on excess food.
n junk food too.
like all that chocs, cheese stuff n wat not.
yes i'll lose e weight i gained.
I PROMISE.
to myself of course.

and do i matter?
sometimes, i really do need to ask this.
if i died, ppl may say they'll miss me.
or not. depending.
but will my passing on matter?
no.
there will always be anth person who can take my place.
easily.
and people will forget me.
very quickly.
*shrugs

ahh!
wat's the problem wif me.

oreo cheesecake made me happy though!
and a little beer.
n lame games.
but that was yesterday.
this is today.

-drifting along. rootlessly-

living in my fantasy world

on Thursday, June 22, 2006; 10:49 PM