my own little world

i'm busy.
busy procrastinating, that is.
WHY AM I ONLINE???
someone scold me.

dance tmr is, again, cancelled.
when dance is e only thing i'm living for at this moment.
i was so looking forward to getting tortured by xunxi till my muscles scream the nxt day.
but i dun get to.
*shrugs.
so let's all deprove to the extent that we cannot jump properly.
YAY. *rolls eyes.
and forgo cca for anth wk nxt wk.
it's not like we were all very good in the first place.
*shrugs again.
ahh just slap me.
i'm so horrible.
i feel like slapping myself.

sianned.
dun even noe y i'm mugging
when i noe i'm sure going to fail everything.
wth.

i hit a pocket of bad mood.
i tink it'll last till after blks.
i'm sorry to all who has to put up wif me.

light at the end of tunnel.
cut hair n possible prata date wif stelly!
:D
miss that woman lar!

to hear that someone close to you has changed.
for the worse,
is just painful.
i haven seen you for several mths,
but to hear of this, makes me really sad.
but i hope u still noe that i love u, and miss u loads.

suddenly keep thinking of all my old frens.
frm ny, aj, and everywhere else.
how r they all doing?
i feel...lost.
yes. lost.
i used to haf joy n yuwei by me all e time.
crapping, yuwei suanning,
both my pillars of support.
we hit hard times, problems, and fun times.
through it all, we were there for each other, quietly supporting.
but now?
i haven toked to either of them in ages.
joy's busy wif council in ac i tink.
dun really dare to call her.
yuwei's busy too.
i miss being suanned by yuwei, oddly.
i miss being able to cry into joy's shoulder.

a photo capturing our personalities.
i look -.-
but still.
the dreamy joy, enthu ks n haha ghostly yuwei.

and then there's aj.
the chopsticks and carmen.
i can rmb standing at the mrt on our last day tgt,
not wanting to go our seperate ways.
it was a thurs, our longest day of e wk.
we couldn't stop sobbing into each other's shoulders,
i felt a part of me torn away.
2 mths is enuf to create such a bond.
yet, the same time is enuf to break it.
i haven spoken to her since goodness noes when.
i wonder if she still rmbs me.
*shrug

i shld go study.
*stoned face.

is it worth it?
to spend slpless nites, wondering.

living in my fantasy world

on Friday, June 23, 2006; 6:10 PM