my own little world

hehe kaishi's happy!
for no good reason.
:D

anyway...
sun was kaiwen's bday!
haha oops happy belated bday girl!
not tt she reads my blog.
-.-

mon...
went back nycd.
it was really...
i dunno.
just, it really sucks noeing that u time on tt audi stage has ended.
when u used to be on it almost every monday.
that laoshi will no longer scold like she did.
zhan wen yi dian!
wif bao tui.
that i'll no longer go hm wif youxin n jac after cca.
i dun even get to talk to them other them when we happen to go back on e same day.
n check out new weird coloured leotards others make.
haha here, although it looks more pro,
everyone's in black.
but it's boring.
and my passion is for dance,
not for e society.
but in nycd, although i din get to contribute much,
i wanted to
here, i just dun mind.
but there's no fire, no life.
and there's a lack of passion for wat we're doing.
as in e whole society.
we nd to fuel our passion.
but is there an ember to begin wif?
i really dunno.
i really shouldn't blog about this.
ah but wat the heck.

n then went for cca.
WE FINALLY CLEANED THE PLACE.
the floor, anyway.
so now i dun feel so icky when we haf to roll on it.
:D
n we did yi zu!
can see it's a pretty tribe dance.
but i still wan gu dian!!!

n den lunch,
den bio.
haha useful session
:D

n then shopping!
:D
pretty thing we bought!
almost wanna kop for myself.
haha.
n then had double chocolate chip and pecan cookies frm famous amos.
NOT GOOD.
haha but a packet shared is half e calories!
:D

n tell me!
shld i bake tmr.
i tink i'll make a mess, even if rach sim was here.
hiaz.
den must bring on mon to let jiefu try.
haha she'll be my guinea pig.
but then it'll be stale cookies!
not good leh.

i miss the time when all was calm n quiet at hm.
and not when everything i did was met wif a lecture.
and dinner time was dinner time, not lecture time.
and i did NOT feel guilty talking on e phone.
nothing i do is right.
fine.

lalalalala.
but i shan't let things bother me!
i've perfected the barriar that seperates upsetting things from me.
but there are things which can still get me.
grrrr.

the look in your eyes,
as you were talking,
made me feel u were pulling away.
that look itself gave me a sense of foreboding.
but there's nothing i can do,
but to watch you drift away.

i've been slping at arnd 2 recently.
i just cannot slp.
n i cannot mug either.
wth.
wat is e prob wif me???
shit.

now's the time to say goodbye.
but i can't do it.
i just can't.

now i dun feel happy anymore.
sian.

-dance. it's worth it.-

living in my fantasy world

on Wednesday, June 21, 2006; 2:16 PM