i had so much fun today.UNTIL i got home.lessons were ok, cos only chem prac mah.den met liting!go nycd.got xinling liying liting! fun fun fun!all e jnrs.dey were doing chun de lu dong!!!we aso do :Dfun fun fun!dance dance dance play play play!yan ngee n xinling can do scissors jump! jealous.i aso wan!!!i still carn do turn jump.n my datiao is slightly less den 180 degrees liao.deproved. :(i miss nycd so much.den went for facial!haha so relaxed.n then.i got home....i'm always made to feel guilty at home.nth i do is ever right.and even wanting to go study at woodlands library wif liting peehua n liying is wrong.n not wanting to go iceskating wif just my sister tonight is wrong too.watever.i'm so tired.i've always had a drive behind me pushing me to improve.to do wat i shld do.to live.now i dun seem to have tt anymore.n i've still got so much work to do.sucks man.n i'm feeling all guilty everytime i take time off to take a drink of water or something.n like now, procrastinating for a while.i so dun want sch to reopen.n there's econs test too.which i haven started studying for yet.i'm stressed.n i've only been at hwa chong for 2 wks, one of which is a holiday.a holiday where i've got to go back EVERY SINGLE DAY for make up lessons.thanks to all the things i missed when i was in aj.i dun wan sch to reopen.but i do.i wan see 06s73.i want to get to noe them!they're a fun class.n i'll c more of my friends too.it seems all of a sudden i need my friends even more than i used to.n i'm still not allowed to continue wif piano.there's only TWO more diplomas that i can take.or want to.isit tt difficult to let me continue?n u complain that i don't practise anymore.wat's e point when i'm not learning things which are challenging me?wif ms chong she gifs me pieces that challenge me.now, there's none.just let me pursue my interest can.u try to stop dance. piano. everything.it's my life.-what i wouldn't do to see that rainbow amidst all the storms-
living in my fantasy world
on Friday, March 17, 2006; 9:29 PM
