it's xcountry today.like shit.cannot go back ny! *wailsn it's only TWO practices.den shuhui called me n told me laoshi release earlyn dey already practiced 3 times.poop.i'm going to be e lousiest man!!!n i had to tell them to have a stand inJUST IN CASE.some ppl try to stop me frm dancing.SOME PPL.i was so happy about going lar.den we had to have cross country.like shit lidat!it's valentine's day soon!haha our class got crazy idea.but aiyar wun happen one larhaha something to do with CHOCOLATES! *big grini'm a chocolate addict and proud of it!haha oh cross country.i ran e whole way! :)it felt short leh.maybe cos aj pe already run so much all e timeden not much difference.haha last time ny xcountry no one practice one.so maybe longer.haha n e guys hafta run 4.8 km if i'm not wrong.my gosh lar.n dear liangyan had stomach flu yesterday, on mc yesterday too.den today ran first place.among e j1 girls.omg. she's totally mad.haha liangyan u pro!!!hmm ppl ask y i'm always cheery.gd qns.it's like i nvr have bad days.i tell u, it's not tt.i DO haf bad days.i just dun show it.y shld i? it'll only spoil e atmosphere.i'll rather smile all e time.lesser muscles used summore.less energy.i try to be enthu all e time. y, u ask.becos i dun want to miss out on all the gd things in life.you'll find more enjoyment when u're enthusiastic.and be proud of who you r and what u r.it'll bring so much more fun in life.n i dun believe in mixing different things.wat happens in sch is in sch.wat happens outside or at hm is there.i'm a double sided person. watever.i can scowl on one side and smile sweetly on anth.so i'm double sided.NO. i'm just a VERY gd actress.or just concealer of feelings.hmm.plus point: i dun blush easily :)i've been losing concentration over many things lately.all because of something.i regret i ever let myself fall into this black pit. NOT.i really suck.it's pretty much confirmed o's results are out nxt wk.i carn wait. hurhur.like so not!i really dun wanna see it. wat if i get 12?i'll really die then.i nvr really gave up on my hope of going where so many of my friends are going.but as time draws nearer, it starts to seem impossible.oh dear.i'm probably going back to aj.i just hope someone is. but possibility not high.n i still dun believe that 10 AUs is the norm.it's so restricted.and all those criteria...diao.aiyar watever. there's so much i want to say.but it's so much better left unsaid.things have deteoriated with the little things i said.i need to dance.randomness seems to fit me nowadays.hmm i can feel hyper to feeling super low to just numbness to extreme alertness.n i'm not doing my work.i haven handed in all e stuff i'm supposed to.or even done them.shit.i've got erm interesting ppl in my class.i always feel like i'm sitting in a spotlight when we're as a class bcos everyone in e vicinity would be staring at us. or pamela, to be exact.he's a guy. the name is self given.thk gdness i tink none of my classmates noe i have a blog.oh yar there's someone i simply CANNOT stand in the class.ewww.ok fine i'm mean.i need to dance.really dance, not train e basics.i miss our time at ny.i miss it so much.n i still dun understand the dui lian hanging at ny!can someone explain?i noe mdm mak would have explained it to u ppl at ny.sentimental feelings.it keeps you in the past.i've moved on, but i keep thinking back to wat i used to haf.it seems ny is where i felt most comfortable.felt myself.i dunno.-myheartkeepsbeatingfaster-
living in my fantasy world
on Friday, February 03, 2006; 9:10 PM
