it's over.
the last and final time we'll dance tgt.
e original cast of syf '05
i'm not going to delude myself n say we'll haf anth chance,
cos i noe we don't.
even wif laoshi's " zai lai yi ke dance nite"
cos i see a big obstacle.
or rather, two.
dear mum and dad.
let's focus on yesterday.
the day we've all been waiting for
yet dreading, given tt it signified the end.
but i thoroughly enjoyed it.
it was worth every fight i had wif my parents
totally.
thurs...
a horrific day of rushing arnd.
and dreadful super tiring pe.
not to mention wif all those aches n pains from tues practice.
after 615 pe i rushed down to city hall...
and was cheated by a taxi driver of 6 bucks.
he drove round e same place THREE TIMES.
and gave me a ONE buck discount.
shit him.
and i din warm up, went up cold
and got myself seriously badly pulled.
but it was fun.fri...i pon maths tutorial.WITH PERMISSION k.oh i haf to get laoshi to sign a letter for me.forgot. nvr mind i'll get it done erm soon.anyway.went to hc to meet liting.MISS HER SO MUCH!
n dajie n liying n meiling n wufan n danqing n lichan n peixuan!!!oh fine. i miss everybody.but anyway...i like hc!haha i hope i can go there.anyway...we walked frm hc all e way to ny.fun fun fun!n went to victoria.mass chaos in our rm man.so many ppl.i only realised at e end of e nite tt e upstairs one had only like 7 ppl or so.while e downstairs, also smaller dressing rm held e rest of ALL of us.laughs.dinner was ewww.e food, but also jiehui, meijie, huitian, suelynn, jesslyn n innocent hanzhi.disgusting jokes.ok fine i started it wif e guy bangkok joke.but still.n sue lynn completely gelled ALL my hair.like helmet.knock knock knock.haha but it was super neat!but e end was liying help me do one.liying pro!!!hehe i forgot how horrible stage makeup was.i rmb how it went onto my face, but forgot e effect.n laoshi still said we din haf enuf, must pu zhuang.haha meiling n i were expressing astonishment tt we were actually USED to it last year.glad we din get so used tt we wore it out. heh.honestly, i wasnt too happy when we were rehearsing e finale stuff.like erm really not happy.but yar i'm happy to be wif nycd!!!e rest of e night passed in a blur.but i noe i have a lot of happy memories to last me forever.not wif e rest of ntu...but wif nycd.kallang theatre, esplanade theatre, and victoria theatre.where next?i feel a weird feeling somewhere arnd my heart.maybe it's sinking.it knows it's all over.n i FORGOT to bring my videocam.shit ass.SHIT!i could have taken so many more memories.but no.i had to forget.n we returned all e costumes on e spot yesterday...changed n straight away n returned.so sad.n they're gonna haf a mass wash on tues!as in wash all our jc 1's costumes.so fun!but too bad, it's only for current batch of nycdians.not me.n i was unlucky yesterday...din stay in hc long enuf to see someone's eyecandy!!!eh SOMEONE if i go u must show me k!!!nycd.indeed a great place to be.back to sch.sadly, celine, pamela n angelina has withdrawn after e results r out.i'm really sad.n aileen, carmen and kiahui are all staying.e three of them are e ones who made aj so wonderful for me.n i'm leaving them behind.how i wish i could put all of u into my pocket n see u guys all e time whereever i'm posted to.i hate e chinese saying : tian xia wu bu san zhi yan xi.sorry but after i redunno do wat to my com i haven loaded in my chi software.so i'm using hanyu pinyin.marlene's chosen aj as first choice.she's definitely going in.all e best gurl!i've got a lot to say.but i just carn find e words to say them.and someone tt matters is going far far away.far far away.so it's probably goodbye for good.-a heart so heavy it sinks-the last of the last.
living in my fantasy world
on Saturday, February 18, 2006; 9:30 PM
