my own little world

i really dun understand how it happened.
really.
one min it was all fine,
the nxt it wasn't.

anyway,
LIANGYAN go HC!!!
den if i can get in (prays fervently)
we can go to sch tgt again!!!
if not i'll miss u so much.
but but but i dun stand much of a chance to go hc.
nvr mind.

i was watching opening dvd again.
i just cried like shit.
n it wasn't even at our item yet.
it was just e sudden realisation tt i had shelved away half a year ago.
it's all over.
syf, our time tgt, all tt lunch break trngs.
THE ESPLANADE.
tt's y i'm so grateful for this chance for us to b together again.
maybe others dun feel it,
but i'm really so grateful i dunno wat i can say.
my heart aches at the thought tt it'll all be over again on fri.

we start out everything tgt,
dancing...
we got GwH,
got opening, arts fest...
i'm really grateful for the chance laoshi gave me.
she let me get into syf the minute i came in.
i got into nycd only in late october, n syf started trng in nov.
i'm really lucky she believed i could do it.
although i'm not all that good yet,
i've learnt a lot.
not just about dance, about ppl.
i rmb during march i was really depressed over a couple of issues...
many ppl were there to lend a listening ear.
even when i cried on e bus
thx all of you.
maybe u've forgotten all this, but i wun

i hate moving on.
i'll lose some friends.
although i'll gain new ones,
losing old ones is always painful
all those pledges of staying in contact are just tt, pledges.
and some will b empty ones.
i noe frm experience.
i just want to say,
all of you that i've known,
you've all touched me life,
whether big or little impact,
u've still made an impact.
thank you and i love u!!!

and moving on...
i've met new ppl at aj.
enjoyed orientation,
feared going into class,
grown to love S2206.
changed ppl's perception of me as dao.
developed crushes,
shared secrets.
laughed, talked for hrs.
ohana became a hm. haha.
and now?
i'm probably leaving again.
sux man.

now i've got to adapt to a new environment again.
tt is if i get in.
i hate tt.

so i just want to say, to all aj folks,
u've been great.
although it's not goodbye yet,
it's soon.
3 wks is not all tt long.
it'll be over b4 we noe it.

i love the song accidently in love.
it's so chirpy it nvr fails to cheer me up.

can u believe it?
i left my dance tee on e floor after i did my trademark change in e studio thingy tt suelynn complains all e time about.
i forgot to put it into my fave PINK bag. -.-
carn believe myself.
n now it's in e cupboard wif e chunjiang costumes.
eww stinky shirt.
n my tong qun is missing!!!
i returned all my costume tgt...wail*
i wan my tong qun!!!
n haha i'm so excited!!!
our super uber fun hairdo time on friday!!!
dear jiefu got her hair cut SOOOO short.
u on purpose gif me trouble hor. hahahahahaha
ok nvr mind i shall use my gelling gong fu on her!!!
haha at least dajie's is still long
n our thick thick makeup!
i rmb on syf day we prac in e quad wif full makeup.
got this pair of gals who were so ignorant in stage makeup commenting tt we shld take a look in e mirror, n tt we looked like yao guai.
haha it's stage makeup n it's damn funnn!!!!
all of us fighting over tt one foundation stick.
n e loose powder.
haha laoshi's uber red lipstick!!!
dajie's pink pink pink blusher!!!
heh n my eyeliner.
haha i prefer laoshi's liquid one.
wheeee so excited!!!

pink bag.
pink waterbottle.
pink wallet.
pink jacket.
pink pencilcase.
pink socks.
pink hair rubber band.
i'm pink all over!!!
i shld get pink nail polish to match -.-

i'm so scared of letting go.
that the pain i'm feeling will show

but i guess i have to.

happy valentine's day!!!
you dun haf to be in a relationship to enjoy it

living in my fantasy world

on Monday, February 13, 2006; 8:58 PM