here's an apology to those whom i've acted cheerful to today.
i was faking it.
i'm sorry.
it's my great grandmother's death anniversary.
it's been 4 yrs.
i can still rmb her quirks, her habits.
n the suffering she went through in the last years of her life.
ah zao i miss you so much.
why do ppl you love always have to leave, at some point in time?
WHY?
thx yiyi for sending me the link to the ballet video.
it may have been something tt happened a long time ago,
but it helps.
watching it cheers me up a little.
i need dance in my life.
and maybe someone.
i really dunno.
-a stone in my heart, weighing it down-
*will you finally understand?
living in my fantasy world
on Sunday, January 22, 2006; 7:20 PM
