i juz typed a whole bunch of stuff in but coz my com hanged it all disappeared n dere goes everything. i m seriously pissed especially when i am already pissed in e beginning if tt blog nvr disappear u would noe y. but i'm not gonna waste my time n effort retypin everything. basically i juz feel like e whole world's out to get me i dunno y. y's everyone making things difficult for me when all i want is to lead a life of my own wifout anyone else trying to change my personality or trying to not let me do e things i luv most. maybe deres not gonna be a rainbow after a storm anymore. i'm too disillusioned to believe tt. all i want now is to let it all end. no, i'm not sucidal but i'm sick n tired of all dis. y isit all happening to me. it's juz not fair. oh juz leave me alone to wallow in my own self pity. maybe i shld pretend to be sick juz so i can pon sch nxt wk. i'm not in e mood to meet ppl. no, i'm sorri, not even ppl whom i luv. i wan to be alone. swallowed up by a big hole wif a stone over it. juz gif me a break.
-gag-
living in my fantasy world
on Saturday, January 15, 2005; 4:30 PM
